Release (2023)

by Alise Kirtley

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I keep silently fuming
at what others dare to do
that I think i could do better, maybe
if they only knew
but for the obstacles I put in the way
of me and what I have to say
so that with every passing day and year
I grow increasingly unclear
with who I am and what there is
to say at all..
so I get louder and and bigger
while i feel quieter and smaller.
Until I heed the call!
Sometimes only for a moment -
just to ease the torment.
But the lie is getting wilder
and I'm loosing so much faster now

I know this can't go on -
it's coming to a head
There are boxes to unlock
and walls to tear down,
and I am scared

I am here and I am listening,
I'll tell you anything about me -
the illusion that i'm open, wide open
for intimacy
but god forbid you hit a nerve
of neediness I hate to serve.
I'll shut up, rear up, glove up,
leave you washed up, pent up, f*cked up,
until my mind comes unstuck,
and I regain control of the veneer
where I bring boldness and brightness,
while I feel witless and worthless...
until the child reappears!
If only for a moment -
just to prove my intent.
But the tide is getting stronger
and we're drowning so much faster now

I know this can't go on -
it's coming to a head
There are boxes to unlock
and walls to tear down,
and I am scared

Sweet release...

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released March 4, 2023

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